the days when there is too much emotion to process.  Too much weight of the pain of loss. Too many tears.  Too much damn emotion.  The raw and real realisation of the end of another dream.  He cried, I tried not to – but eventually, it just hurt too much and then I couldn’t stop the tears from falling.

Today, my ex partner of 8 years came around to do some packing and sorting of his belongings which have been in the house since he ‘moved out’ in January.  With the house being sold, we have a lot of sorting and packing to do.  I have decided to completely downsize my life.  Some part of me feels that I am in for a big change in location.  Irrespective though, I just want to get back down to basics and a minimalist existence for a while.  The ‘stuff’ has exhausted me, weighed me down and for a while, not sure for how long, I just want to contend with the bare minimum.  Maybe this could be forever too, I’m not sure.

My life has done a complete turn.  Nothing is as it was a year ago.  In reality, you just don’t know what tomorrow has in store.  Even though you are waiting for some things to happen, they can still knock you to the ground when they do.

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3 Comments on Mama said there’d be days like this ..

  1. Shybiker
    12 September 2016 at 03:47 (5 years ago)

    I’m sorry, honey. This is tough. I hope you get through this rough patch and find joy again. Best wishes.

    • Wendy
      12 September 2016 at 12:59 (5 years ago)

      Thanks so much Ally – hanging in at this point

  2. Lynn
    19 September 2016 at 10:53 (5 years ago)

    I am really sad that you are going through such a rough time little sister! Know that I am here for you whenever, whatever!!!!