There are simply no words to explain the deep feeling of dread and sadness I’m feeling at the prospect of my children not being here for Christmas and New Year.  I believe it’s heightened by the fact that its Miz T’s 21st birthday in January and I simply am not able to spend it with her and that it feels things are simply not working out how I’d hope and try as I may, I seem to failing miserably in certain areas of my life.  I’m also so exhausted emotionally and just don’t know what to do anymore … Sigh …



Motivation is what gets you started.

Habit is what keeps you going.

~Jim Ryun


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6 Comments on December

  1. Anonymous
    1 December 2011 at 15:43 (10 years ago)

    It is how things feel as we hurtle towards the end of the year. Know that God has a plan! I can imagine how sad you are not to be able to spend Tana’s 21st with her. If I win the Lotto before that we will jet you off there with speed!! Let’s keep praying for that miracle! LOL!!! Love you!!! Lynn

  2. Lynn
    1 December 2011 at 15:47 (10 years ago)

    Hey Sista … I think this feeling also comes from the speed at which we are hurtling towards the end of the year and we realise that we have not achieved everything we would have liked to.
    I an imagine how sad you are not to be able to spend Tan’s 21st with her. I wish I could win the Lotto then I would jet you off there with speed!!! Let’s continue to pray that that could happen. Lynn

  3. Shybiker
    2 December 2011 at 03:37 (10 years ago)

    Oh, dear… I’m sorry, buddy. My heart aches for you. I hope things improve and you get to see your kids more. Hang in there — we love you!

  4. Mz.T
    2 December 2011 at 14:19 (10 years ago)

    Dear mommy,

    I miss u lots everyday but my 21st isnt a big deal at all! You have been with me the past 20 ones to celebrate! You are not failing or a failure, I know you are absolutely awsom and my opinion is all that counts 🙂 ;)! You are so great and you need to give yourself a break! Your guilt is your enemy!

    You are amazing and you do such a great job

    I simple love u lots 🙂

    2 December 2011 at 18:00 (10 years ago)

    How sweet is your daughter? I totally know what you’re going thru. My son won’t be home for Christmas…hang in there and know that I’ll be crying with you.

  6. Mariette
    3 December 2011 at 15:26 (10 years ago)

    Love your daughter’s comments…..couldn’t ask for more!